So today I’m going to be sharing with you my size/ weight journey. It’s been a bit up and down to say the least but that’s what growing up is all about, its never easy.
I was always a chubby little kid even from a baby. You might as well have called me michelin man Molly. Though there was less of a worry if I fell as that chub would definitely soften the blow.
So from a child it was evident that I wasn’t a skinny build. This chubbiness/ puppy fat ( which my mum liked to call it) continued right the way up until probably around my early teens which then I suppose the puppy fat is no longer classed as puppy fat and instead it’s just being plain ole fat. I suppose some of my chubbiness is down to my general build but it’s most likely due to my uncontrollable eating. I used to be an avid baker yet I must admit most of it was eaten by me that day, aka the fatness!
So that was that and I just decided that one day I was going to do something about it finally. I was sick of being the ‘fat’ friend and my breaking point was probably when someone shouted “Molly hatch is FAT!” down the street. I didn’t diet as such, definitely not at the start as I found it really difficult but exercise was the thing that really worked for me, especially running. I used to run to the gym then workout/ do a class and then run back around 4-5 times a week! Exercising was and still is my therapy and a way to generally feel better about myself. Nothing like the release of those happy endorphins. In terms of eating it took me a while to grasp what I should be eating but in the end I mastered it and the solution was healthy eating. I say healthy because I used to and still do eat chocolate, as a girl can’t live without chocolate especially when that time of the month comes around, you know what I’m saying girls! So yeah healthy eating and exercise, what you’ve probably heard a million times before but there’s a reason for that because it really works.
Now I would say that my body has plateaued, reached its happy place. I no longer gain or lose weight but my body has definitely changed in shape. Now I have hips, a booty and boobs. Oh and of course the booty comes with those mermaid thighs as it’s gotta be supported. For me this drastic change in shape from being a size 8/10 to a 12/14 was quite hard to deal with. I know I’m not massive but when you’ve experienced being a smaller size it’s hard to gain weight and be slightly fuller. Though I don’t see it as a bad thing anymore, I embrace my fullerness/ more womanly figure. It only took me about a year and a half but I’ve managed to love myself like every orher girl and boy should do no matter what they’re age or size.
My ultimate goal now is to be healthy and fit. I’m sick and tired of trying to fit in with what society deems to be the most beautiful or glamorous. We are all beautiful and glamorous in our own way. Why should society’s opinion influence and more importantly dictate our lives. I am a massive culprit of worrying about what others think of me but now I give up. I’m not going to let society win. I’d say one of my biggest pet peeves due to society’s influence is when people buy clothes that don’t fit them or aren’t comfortable because that’s the size they usually are/ the size they want to be. Sizes don’t mean anything nowadays. You can be a size 10 in one shop and a size 14 in another. A recent experience of mine in Topshop trying on mom jeans proves this. Usually I’m a size 14 in jeans due to my wide hips, booty and mermaid thighs but I couldn’t even get the size 14 mom jeans over my thighs. Now this may be because mom jeans are made from rather stiff denim so don’t have much give in them but I have a pair of H&M mom jeans in a size 14 and they fit perfectly. So if there’s anything you take away from this blog is to definitely not trust sizing and go with the size that feels comfortable and fits you. If the size really bothers you then just cut the label out, that’s what I do and anyway who’s going to know what size it is, it’s not like it’s stitched on the front of your clothes like look at me I’m a size 14!! Anyway I’ll stop rambling… as you can see I’ve been many shapes and sizes and finally found my happy medium. I’m not embarrassed or afraid to say that I’m a size 12/14 and I have thick thighs and a bum anymore because that’s who I am. My ultimate goal is to be happy and feel confident. Be True Be You
Currently I’m in my second year at university studying French with business management and I can tell you now university isn’t a doddle (well first year maybe but second year is definitely NOT). So in this blog I’m just going to share with you a few things I’ve learnt since coming to uni…
- It’s okay to be yourself. Basically what I mean by this is if you don’t want to go out every night of the week and get absolutely trollied then that’s perfectly okay. Its not a university requirement that you go out all the time because A thats such a waste of money and time since you don’t remember anything anyway and B the only thing you do get out of it is a sore head and your feet cursing you from the not so comfy high heels you so desperately tried to wear all night. I’m not saying you shouldn’t go out because I think everybody deserves a good night to let loose, especially in celebration after you say goodbye to those haunting deadlines, but you just shouldn’t be pressured into going out when you don’t want to. I mean who can afford to go out all the time with student loan nowadays anyway.
- Be careful with money. On the topic of student loan even though its so tempting to spend that magical sum of money each semester you gotta restrain those little fingers from pressing checkout online or entering those 4 magic numbers in the card machine, because that money runs out quickly and when its gone its gone for good. Unfortunately my student loan didn’t and still doesn’t cover my accommodation or bills so I have a part time job on the side which gets tricky during exam season and when those deadlines creep up but essentially I need it so just gotta deal. So for me I’ve never actually been able to spend any of my student loan to date, sad times.
- Preparation is key. Now this is something I didn’t quite grasp in first year, the whole idea of organisation, preparation and keeping on top of that endless stream of work, but that’s okay because thats what first year is all about. Theres so many changes that happen at once and so many new things you have to adjust to that you physically won’t get everything right first time so try not to beat yourself up about it. You’ll get there, everyone does just in time and experience. I must admit though this was something I found particularly hard because I’m the most impatient person in the world (thanks dad) so I like to get things right then and there, but sometimes in life you just gotta wait (unfortunately).
- Don’t compare yourself to others. I’m a massive culprit of doing this, especially because I’m studying French surrounded by such amazing people who are practically already fluent and theres me with no French relatives and having only learnt French at school which wasn’t much help to be honest. You know what I mean, just learning and reciting paragraphs for exams and oh the dreaded unexpected questions which weren’t really unexpected because you knew the topic beforehand, but you’re still sitting there thinking no please no don’t ask me them. Well now I’m learning about French politics and French laws when I don’t even know about my own country’s politics or laws and those dreaded unexpected questions are a just daily occurence but still dreaded. Anyway back to what I was saying about comparing yourself to others, even though you may think you’re the dummy of the class you’re definitely not. Its just at university praise is not really something they do so just prepare yourself for lots in the way of criticism, but don’t worry you will have improved its just they don’t like to tell you that you have #outofschoolreality.
- Go to your lectures. Now it may be tempting especially at the end of the semester to miss a few lectures here and there, no one will notice? But you forget that you’re actually paying to go to university and you wouldn’t pay for something unless you wanted it so in a sense you’re just shooting yourself in your own foot. It’s better to go and sit through a whole two hours of someone rambling on about nonsense than missing something crucial in the long run. It may hurt your soul at the moment but it will pay off in the future. And anyway it’s not like you’ve got to go to uni every day for 9 hours straight, I only have to go in 3 times a week (for £9000 a year, totally getting my moneys worth…NOT).
- Make sure you check your emails and blackboard. Lecturers love to spring unexpected work and deadlines on you so make sure you check your emails/blackboard (blackboard may vary from uni to uni but it is essentially an online portal for all the modules/work you’re currently doing) because you don’t want to turn up to a lecture and feel a sudden rush of panic as the lecturer says I hope you’ve all prepared for your presentation today. At this point you can feel yourself slowly sinking into your chair trying to pretend you’re not there.
- You are responsible for your own work. There ain’t nobody who’s gonna remind you to hand that summative essay in or remind you to revise for the big end of year exam, unfortunately my friends is all up to you. That’s what uni is all about, learning to cope and be independent. When that deadline says 3pm Tuesday it means 3pm Tuesday, there’s no bargaining or sweet talking that can be done to change it so if you don’t reach that deadline you’re stuffed!
- Be careful with that food shop. So first year food shopping is a little trickier as you have to share a kitchen with roughly 8 other people so fridge and freezer space is a little limited. So try not to buy too much food as A you won’t be able to fit it anywhere and B most of the time you’ll end up wasting it which is what i used to do. The key thing is to buy only what you need, which I must admit is quite hard sometimes especially with jars of sauce as they are usually quite large and the smaller versions are more expensive even though there’s less stuff in it. The CHEEK! So my best advice is to shop around. Though this does get a lot easier in 2nd year when you move into your own house with the people you actually chose to live with and less of them, meaning you can have a whole shelf to yourself. Ah the dream! Plus now we tend to do a whole house shop and cook together which makes things so much cheaper and less wastage. Aldi is every students fav place to shop, but I’m also partial to ASDA and Sainsbury’s (mainly because of my staff discount) to get the branded stuff like Belvita breakfast biscuits which are my go to snack. I confess I am a biscuit lover.
- Make sure you eat your greens. It’s so easy to go crazy with food because this is the first time you’ve been able to properly take control of what you’re eating. So first few months its okay to go crazy but make sure you integrate that staple fruit and veg as well. Now I know fruit and veg can be expensive but this is where Aldi comes in handy again. Aldi fruit and veg is so much cheaper than any other supermarkets, it can be a little but hit and miss sometimes but fruit and veg is unpredictable anyway. So get yourself down to Aldi (or Lidl) because you need that brain food to keep you going, especially during exam season.
- Enjoy it! Lets face it you’re probably not going to get as much time off as you do at university for a while so enjoy the long ole holidays and enjoy the university experience. Get involved in anything and everything and above all be yourself!